Got that letter from Wyo today. The official one.

It told me to try community service.

Fuck this. Fuck them. Fuck me. I hate it.

Climbed three 5.9s easily, climbed a 5.9-5.11 rainbow (didn't pay attention to the colors of the holds, giving me more options, but they were freakin' tiny.) and got owned by by a 5.10a--doable, but I was freakin' tired by that time.

Also did a 5.5, 5.6, 5.7, and half a 5.8, which Dad didn't let me finish on account of being a 'wet noodle.'

I will climb a 5.12b someday. I will.

Anywho, I have rockclimbing again Saturday, for the movement class. Yeah, I'm still doing the beginner stuff.

Hopefully if I get a free moment, I'll conquer the goddamn 5.9 overhang thing, because goddammit I hate that thing and I will never rest ever ever oh my god until I have gotten to the top without resting once and aaaaauuuugh!

So, right, the movement class.

That.

Fun.

Stolen from 50 thousand people


Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People Right Now:
1. You are my absolute best friend ever. Like, ever. So inevitably, I wonder sometimes if you don't want me around. Don't worry, it never lasts long.
2. You piss me the hell off, which is really counter intuitive, because every time I see you, I smile like you are the only person that matters.
3. I don't know. I just don't know. It's too hard to have you around.
4. Also, I don't understand you. I mean, I'd cry if you died, but that's pretty much as deep as it goes. Sorry.
5. You confuse the hell out of me, because I SHOULD want to but I DON'T want to and sometimes I think YOU want to.
6. You are one neat chick. I think I'd really like you if I met you.
7. How I love thee. HOW I LOVE THEE.
8. 'S still awkward, but hey, what are you going to do? I think we'll be good friends someday.
9. You are so nice, it boggles my mind. Sometimes I think I don't deserve it, but I know that doesn't matter to you. I hope it all works out. You've done so much for me (us) and I won't ever forget it.
10. I would do you until you couldn't walk straight. Hint: this is Katy Perry.

Nine Things About Myself:
1. I love mac and cheese. Like, LOVE mac and cheese.
2. I'm happy, and I feel good about it. I mean, I'm not going to forget what it's like to not be happy, but I'm living proof that you can crawl back up.
3. I play everquest. Like, I roleplay hardcore and everything. I'm such a geek.
4. My favorite time of day is 3 AM, and doubly so if I'm listening to Storm, by Peter Gresser. Hint, you can find the song in the music section of 5ideways.com.
5. I'm a bit of a poser. Whoever I'm talking to, I emulate them. People often get confused.
6. I love the feeling of being underwater, but I will often not go swimming, because I can't embrace the feeling of being wet.
7. I'm gay. And I'm very aware that a year ago, this would have been first on my list. It's just not that important to me anymore.
8. I'm learning to call myself an artist, and this is a very good thing.
9. I love rockclimbing, politics, and music. I have no idea how that all links together.

Eight Ways to Win My Heart:
1. Be comfortable around me, and let me be comfortable around you.
2. Don't piss off my friends.
3. Be tactful. I don't want to be ashamed of you.
4. Know that I'm just not ready for sex, so don't pressure me.
5. Buy me flowers!
6. Finish my thought when I trail off.
7. Play everquest with me, and be into it, at least for my sake. But don't let me play too long.
8. give me headskritches.
8.2 Bring up something I've said in the past just to let me know you were paying attention.
8.3 Rockclimb with me, even if you're scared, just to show me you trust me.
8.4 Belay me when rockclimbing, so I can learn to trust you.

Seven Things That Cross My Mind a Lot:
1. I'm terrified as to where this election is going.
2. I love mac and cheese.
3. Maybe Friendly Hostility updated.
4. I should play Final Fantasy.
5. What part was I at, again?
6. Music
7. I wonder if I want kids.

Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep:
1. Check email/deviantart/livejournal.
2. Reflect on the day.
3. Listen to music in the basement.
4. Check webcomics if I haven't already.
5. Get in bed.
6. Attempt to sleep but usually read for a bit and then sit up and think until I drop from exhaustion.

Five People Who Mean a Lot:
1. Mom
2. Kat
3. Allie
4. Leiah, though I wish she didn't.
5. Shannon

Four Things I'm Wearing Right Now:
1. Pajama pants with little gingerbread men and candy canes
2. White ipod headphones. I'm listening to "A Telegram Warning of Impending Distress" by Peter Gresser.
3. A tank top
4. UH. Underwear?

Three Songs I Listen to a Lot:
1. ...Lolli lolli by 3 six mafia. Shaddup. It's fun to dance to, aight?
2. Here in your arms, by Hellogoodbye
3. Untouched, by The Veronicas.

Two Things I Want to Do Before I Die:
1. Become good in German.
2. Have someone have the balls to tell me I'm beautiful without any prompting. Like, out of the blue.

One Confession:
I secretly love rap music.

So, one trip to CVS later, I have an electric toothbrush because I have always wanted one, a box of macaroni and cheese to make later, and a barnacle covered reeses cup.

No joke. It's half melted, and has bubbles. Like, little barnacle resembling bubbles.

I mean, I'm still gonna eat it, I just have to share this with you.

But like I said, I'll update this when the mood takes me. So there.

My hands are back at the point they were when I first started rockclimbing, which by rights isn't so long ago, but damn, I am so much better It's a little scary.

But anyway, today I did a 5.8, two 5.9s, I think a 5.7 to warm up, and to end it off, a 5.6 with an overhang.

Paaaaiiiiin

I'm not using my rockclimbing icon because I wanted to show off Tennant. YOU SEE? YOU SEE?

...

I have nothing more to say, except that rockclimbing is the most beast freakin' thing ever.

I am doing significantly better, even though I'm walking away with bleeding hands and trembly arms, I'm not as bad off as last time, so this is good.

I got 3/4 up a 5.9, which is pretty good for me, and got up all the 5.7s I tried, so I'm on my way. Last time I barely managed a 5.7.

I feel like I'm turning out to be better at this then I thought--this time I had more tricks and knew how to use them, whereas last time I was going around being "Uh, I remember this I think and wait how do I do this and yeah okay is this right? No? Hmm."

It was fun.

Also, I now have two more amazing userpics.

And no, I again refuse to put it behind a cut. Beotches.

[my name is]: Well, my MIDDLE name is 'Fabulous'
[height?]: 5'8''
[in the morning I am]: cranky. Srsly. I'm like "EVERYONE STFU GOD DAMMIT I HATE YOU ALL" and if anyone asks me to do something I give them a long look and I sigh a little like it is causing me GREAT PERSONAL AGONY to help them.
[all I need is]: LOVE, WAH WAH WAHWAHWAH
[love is]: Hard! Awful! Fantastic! Pretty bitchin'
[if I could see one person right now]: Allie, prolly, since she's mah best buuuudeh, but also Alexis if she weren't straight.
[I'm afraid of]: Going completely mental. Srsly.
[I dream about]: Man, all my good dreams have to do with lord of the rings.

-H A V E .Y O U. E V E R . .
[been in love]: Platonically, all the fucking time. I love all of you. Romantically--well, I'm 15. I have cared for someone really, really deeply and imagined spending the rest of my life with them, but how far does that go when you're 15? I believe it was love, though.
[cried when someone died]: Mhmm. S'not a shameful thing to do, you know.
[lied]: Duh.

-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[coke or pepsi]: Neither. Ew, carbonation.
[flowers or candy]: Romantically, flowers, platonically, candy. But damn, if you guys ever want to woo me, buy me some flowers. Or maybe just one flower.
[tall or short]: I'm usually into people within 6 inches of my height. Usually the people I'm attracted to are slightly taller, but I hate feeling short.

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do you notice first?]: level of comfort around me! Ha, see, I can usually tell when someone's gonna turn out to be a good friend if I'm comfortable around them and vice versa.
[last person you slow danced with]: Opposite sex? I waltzed with Larry at Oella, but I don't think that counts. Same sex? ...Heh. Heheh.
[worst question to ask]: "When did you decide to be homosexual?"--Yeah, I know, things always seem to come back to my sexuality, but this is one of the only things that really bug the hell out of me.

-W H O-
[makes you laugh the most?]: Mah kaaaat!
[makes you smile]: Allie~
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: goodfunny? ...Alexis. Shaddup. Badfunny? MARIE. SHIT. FUCK. HIDE ME NOW.
[do you have a crush on?]: Fuck, like it isn't obvious. I have a halfhearted "Hey, I would totally go for a casual thing if she were into chicks" crush on Alexis, but right now I'm kind of enjoying being single. Chicks are crazy. Gimme a break for a while.
[has a crush on you?]: I've no idea.
[is easiest to talk to]: Allie and Kat, prolly.

-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] Fuck no.
[save aol/aim conversations]: Veerrrry occasionally.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: For the sake of curiosity, sure. But not really.
[cried because of someone saying something to you]: Yeeeaaah, all the time. I want to make something clear--I will cry over the end of Legally Blonde. I am a fucking faucet.

-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend]: Fuck you. Yes, I have.
[been rejected?]: yeah
[rejected someone]: yeah
[used someone]: ..yeah.
[been cheated on]: In thought, sure, but I don't think my all of three relationships ever cheated on me. I have, however, kissed someone while technically being in a relationship. But that was okay on all sides, so there was no issue.
[done something you regret]: Nope! I think I'm a pretty spiffin' kid, so I don't regret anything that makes me who I am.
[been drunk?]: Nope, and don't plan to.
[done drugs?]: I get hopped up on speed every morning.

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone]: Allie. She is the only person I CAN talk on the phone with.
[hugged]: Mommy!
[you instant messaged]: Cody, actually. He, uh, asked me when I decided to be homosexual. No, I tried not to be offended. He's an okay guy.
[that instant messaged you]: Code-ster
[you laughed with]: I laugh a lot. Uh, I think it was with Malichk, who sits next to me in American Government.

-D O .Y O U-
[color your hair]: Hell to the yeah. It's a faded blue right now, but it's been pink in the past. I think I'm going to try for cherry red, or orange soon.
[ever get off the damn computer]: ...sometimes.
[habla espanol]: Nein.
[parlez français]: Ich spreche Deutsch.

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[smoke cigarettes]: I'm a singer, dude. That shit takes your vocal cords into a dark alleyway and fucks them up.
[obsessive]: About fandoms, yeah.
[could you live without the computer?]: A year ago, no way, now, yeah.
[how many peeps are on your buddylist?]: Pffft. Only my roleplaying buddies. I'm Artemis Fowl in an LJ roleplay, so occasionally we use character buddy lists.
[what's your favorite food?]: Macaroni and cheese, lollipops.
[whats your favorite fruit?]: Grapes, prolly.
[drink alcohol?]: No way, jose!
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: Sunsets. It's a very spiritual time of the day.
[what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?]: Both hurt a hellavu lot, but emotional pain lasts way longer.
[trust others way too easily]: No.

You know who else I like?

Tokio Hotel.

I couldn't care less about the hype about them until I saw them at the VMAs and it was like "I'm a man but I look like a chick and my hair is gorgeous and I'm going to be grateful with a german accent" and I was like "EEEEEEEEH"

So I checked out their music, and it's pretty good.

And yeah. Chris Brown. He ain't bad either.

There's a Hybrid Cadillac commercial that plays on Bravo every once in a while, and it sends shivers down my spine every time.

It is a goddamn amazing ad.

I want one now. Like, *really* want one.